~ Wat a day...

~ Its now 4.36 pm. I just had my first meal today. adoiiii... meeting, meeting and meeting. penat siottt... dah la penat menunggu org. uhukss.. nasib baik end up dia signup.. kalau tak..mmg nak kena tau... i start enjoy my new job now, my new office, my new friend. i hope this place will make me better.. :-)

~ i cant sleep last night. i really miss someone.. end up, i open my mobile chat using my blackberry sambil golek-golek di atas katil... bunyik cam bestkan? tetapi tahu kah anda bahawa blackberry ku ini kurang mesra alam.. susah nak msg while driving (but still, i bole send email while driving.. hahahhaha). oleh sbb xleh tido, aku pun chat la dengan someone from my past and we have open back our old story. tak sangka he still remember everything and so do i...

~ last nite he's asking me y did i leave him before. ntah apa angin aku smlm, i talk to him nicely and explain evrything to him. dia pun elok je. last nite he told me how much he loved me that particular time. katanya, aku tak tau mcm mana dia sayang aku. nooo... not that i donno my dear. i admit that it is my fault. and of course, i do luv u that time, tp aku sgt bodoh mengejar cinta yang tak ada... he ask me.. "apa kurangnya saya?" hemm... awak tak ada kurang.. cukup semuanya.. saya je.. :(

~ i told him that i already get my pay for doing that to him.. again.. i'm so sorry.. he deserve someone better.. awk, pls...trust ur luv one.. tak semua org mcm saya.. jgn hukum org lain disebabkan saya ok?

~ dia masih macam dulu.. maybe before this aku selalu tunjuk rasa tak bersalah bila sebut pasal dia. tp deep inside, i always feel guilty to him. i wish i could turn back time and choose him. tapi tuhla kan... sibuk sgt kejar si "pundek" (ooopsss.. lama da xde cite pasal dia ni kan? idup lagi tak agaknya?). tp Alhamdulillah, tuhan tunjuk kan aku kebenarannya. tapi sebelum aku dpt petunjuk tu, tetap ada hati yang terluka.. maafkan aku..

~ huarghhh.. nantok dan penat. i start back my diet coz mum keep complaining tat badan aku da naik semula. ye aaa.. stop kejap pakai beautiful. doctor suh aku rehat sat coz that thing make my tonsil bengkak. erkk.. pelik bunyik nya kan. ehekss.. mmg pelik.. tp benarrrrrrr. kat luar tu ujan lagi.. sgt lebat. i just hope that i can get back home as soon as i can.. nak tido... zzzzz....